7.02.2007 - Zerbrochen

Ich habe endlich Entscheidungen getroffen,

doch unsere Freundschaft ist daran zerbrochen.

Warst Du es nicht die meinte, ich solle dazu stehen,

meinen eigenen Weg zu gehen?

Ich mache es mir wirklich nicht leicht damit,

träume jede Nacht von unserem Split.

Wünsche mich zurück in die Zeiten,

wo wir uns aneinander noch erfreuten.

Ich trage die Schuld auf meinem Rücken

Und bin mir dessen auch bewußt.

Konsequenzen für uns beide...

Ich wünschte, ich wäre diejenige, die daran leide.

Wo ist die Brücke,

die uns einander wieder näher bringt.

Ich spüre nur diese dunkle Lücke,

die von Wut und Enttäuschung wird umringt.

„Es tut mir leid“, kann ich nur noch sagen,

auch wenn es noch offen lässt zu viele Fragen.

Ich hatte dafür keinen Plan,

sonst hätte ich gewählt eine andere Bahn.

7.02.2007 - You dont see

You don´t see,

although you are a part of me.

I am not showing you my fall,

because you wouldn´t understand at all.

Why don´t you realise,

when you look into my eyes.

I think you don´t look deep enough,

that made me very tough.

Smiles are hiding my tears.

If you just could see all my fears.

It makes me sad to know,

that you don´t see my real soul.

I feel kind of lost when I am with you,

because I can never be honest

although I want to...

7.02.2007 - worried about you

I can see you smile,

but I know, inside you cry.

Something is really going wrong

and I hope you´ll get along.

I am really worried about you

and I pray that you´ll get through.

I am not able to help,

so try to get out yourself!

Every minute I am by your side,

but you cannot realize.

´Cause just with my mind

I am with you through every cry and smile.

I am really worried about you

and I pray that you´ll get through.

I am not able to help,

so try to get out yourself!

Oh it´s hurting me,

you never will be free.

We just have to live our lives,

    without each other by our side.

7.02.2007 - Words

Words broke me

But people wouldn´t stop

I thought I will never be free

And be able to stand up...

I lost control and confidence

And builded my own cage

In which I can be free, sing and dance

And be able to celebrate...

Now the cage is my home

I locked it and just I have the key

Maybe someone will come

And set me free

To be me...

7.02.2007 - Unlovable

Unlovable girl,

walking through the cloudy night.

None there

to hold her tight.

A flood of tears running over her face,

she just hasn´t found the right place.

Shivering because of the cold in- and outside,

still looking for the guardian light.

Where is the one who has the key,

her heart is just waiting to be set free.

But it is not easy to unlock her door,

patience and love is what you need therefor.

Her heart has been broken for so many times.

Trust is a word, she can hardly remind.

Her soul is a secret, she wants to keep,

with a lot of pain buried so deep.

She is looking for the way

that brings her home.

Until she has found,

she has to walk alone.

7.02.2007 - Unbewußt

Unbewußt formten mich Deine Hände.

Unbewußt schulten mich Deine Worte.

Unbewußt schützten Dein Körper und Geist mich.

Unbewußt zeigtest Du mir ,

wie stark Liebe sein kann.

Ganz bewußt fühle ich dieses Band zwischen uns,

was nie brechen wird.

Du bist einer der wichtigsten Menschen in meinem Leben,

den ich nie missen möchte.

7.02.2007 - 2 of us

We are two people

with different souls.

You hate the silence

I love so much,

for reasons you don´t understand.

It´s driving you mad

The way I am,

because it´s so different to you.

I am scared to be me,

when I am with you.

You try to analyze,

but don´t get through.

You don´t see,

what it means to me.

Talking nonsense

is fun for you.

A waste of time for me.

It´s up to you

how you live your life,

but let me be free

to be.

I am scared to be me

when I am with you.

You try to analyze my being,

but don´t understand at all.

You don´t see,

what it means to me.

You think your way is the best.

You are right, I am wrong.

No other way exists for you.

Telling you the truth?

What for?

You don´t except other opinions

than yours.

So I run away in silence and

you will never see

who I really am.

I am scared to be me,

when I am with you.

You try to analyze,

but don´t understand at all.

You don´t see,

what it means to me.

7.02.2007 - Traurige Welt

Keiner sich mehr um den anderen schert,

jeder nur noch sich selber begehrt.

Erschreckend wie grausam selbst die Jüngsten können sein,

es trügt der blasse, liebliche Schein.

Wo soll das alles noch hinführen

-         dieser Wahn?

Schönheit und Gier sind die führenden Triebe

auf jedermanns Lebensbahn.

Ein schlechtes Gewissen plagt heute kaum noch wen,

wenn man nach schlechten Taten hat in den Spiegel zu sehen.

Ist es nun Pflicht die Waffe zu tragen?

Gibt es keinen anderen Weg,

um sich zu schützen an grausamen Tagen?

Was kommt nach all dieser Gewalt auf uns zu?

Werden wir je finden zur Ruh?

Kalt und frustriert heute jeder durch´s Leben läuft.

Ist man zu liebevoll und freundlich,

wird man gleich verständnislos beäugt.

Wo Gewalt herrscht, sollten Liebe wir ernten –

auch gegen scheinbar unbezwingbare Schranken.

In dieser traurigen Welt...

7.02.2007 - the way...

My way to peace...

I am still walking to get there.

Hope and faith are keeping me going.

But it´s so hard.

This loneliness makes me scream for love.

When will he finally join me on my way?

The path seems to long for me,

but helping hands keep me strong.

I wanna fly someday.

I am still climbing to get

high enough for that.

But I will get there!

The voice inside said so.

I am crying for peace right now.

And the day will come,

where all my tears will be washed away

by lots of smiles...

7.02.2007 - 2000 - take me home

Take me home

Sometimes I feel so lost inside of me,
I tried to forget,
but there have been too many people

who destroyed so much...

The only thing I grasp onto is hope.
My hope to find someone who...

Takes me home to feel free again,

takes me home to be happy again,

takes me home to love again,

takes me home to,

yes, takes me home to be loved again.

There are times when the pain is so hard

That my head seems to burst.

Then, it´s almost driving me mad,

not to be able to control myself.

So, where are you to...

Take me home to feel free again,

take me home to be happy again,

take me home to love again,

take me home to,

yes, please take me home to be loved again.

Deep wishes and dreams bring me back to hope.

Don´t wanna go alone my way, forever.

Oh God, can´t you feel this endless longing?

Happyness is gone and it´s waiting somewhere.

The day, he will come to take me home,

it will come back into my heart.

I´ll keep on waiting,

keep on waiting and waiting...

to come home,

to you...

7.02.2007 - stay strong

I am here for you,

together we´ll make it through

this splashing rain of thorns.

All that I can say is

„stay strong“.

All that I can do is

help you get along

with all this pain

and terrifying strain.

Don´t worry, my love,

just listen to the voice from above.

There is always a way

that will bring a better day.

All that I can say is

„stay strong“.

All that I can do is

help you get along

with all this pain

and terrifying strain.

Hope is what you need

to be able to succeed.

Hold on to your dreams and faith,

we´ll find our lucky place.

All that I can say is

„stay strong“.

All that I can do is

help you get along

with all this pain

and terrifying strain.

7.02.2007 - Searching for you

Days of grey

leave me bleeding into the night.

Warm and lonely tears are running down my cheeks.

I don´t know what to do?

Which way to go?

I am talking to you!

Are you listening?

Can you feel my longing?

Oh, Lord, help me to feel you closer.

I need you to be with me all the way.

Only my dreams keep me going.

I don´t wanna give them up.

Am I wrong, my Lord?

Am I fooling myself?

Who´ll give me the answer?

Maybe I just don´t wanna hear it...

I am talking to you!

Are you listening?

Can you feel my longing?

Oh, Lord, help me to feel you closer.

Show me the way.

Oh please stay beside me

and keep your hands over me.

Don´t give up on me and keep me going.

7.02.2007 - Schlaflos

Ich schließe meine Augen,

doch finde ich keinen Schlaf.

Dunkle Schatten aus der Vergangenheit und Gegenwart

kreisen in meinem Kopf umher

und lassen mir keine Ruh.

Der Schleier aus Dunkelheit umhüllt mich mit Schaudern.

Dann denke ich an Dich, mein Licht,

und mir wird warm ums Herz.

Du gibst mir die Kraft gegen diese beängstigenden Schatten anzugehen.

Stark zu sein.

Ich schließe meine Augen

und mit Dir im Herzen verschwindet alles Unheil.

Ohne Dich, mein Licht,

wäre ich verloren in der Dunkelheit meines Lebens.

Ich wüßte nicht, welchen Weg ich zu gehen habe.

Niemand würde mir leuchten.

7.02.2007 - Restlessness

I am running and I can´t stop.

My aim is keeping me going.

“What for”, I hear you say.

You just can´t understand my way.

It´s a lonely road and maybe wrong.

But if so, God will guide me to another one.

I need my dreams to live,

´cause reality has not a lot to give.

My heart may bleed,

but I am sure,

all the trouble on my tour

is worth living it until I leave.

7.02.2007 - Lord

Oh Lord,

what´s going on in this world?

All those cruel things

are frightening me.

People are dying,

everyone is crying.

How can we stop it?

If you don´t wanna lose your mind,

you have to close your eyes...

7.02.2007 - Nobody

Sometimes everything is going wrong,

than I don´t know how to get along.

The Father taught me to be strong

and to move on and on.

Nobody is understanding

me and my feelings.

I can´t find a way

out of all those terrifying things.

When life is cruel and unkind,

I feel just like an innocent child.

With nobody around

to pick me up from the cold, dark ground.

Nobody is understanding

me and my feelings.

I can´t find a way

out of all those terrifying things.

I feel lost and frightened,

because there isn´t someone real beside me.

But I´ll believe on and on

and pray for my prince

who does me never wrong.

I know, he will come.

And until that day,

I´ll be on the run.

7.02.2007 - 06/2004 . Little world

My little world

Dreams, my reality.

With you and me – together for eternity.

Ride on, ride on and don´t look back.

Let us fly and live my dream.

Where nothing is as hard as it seems.

Just the two of us – as simple as that.

Without anybody beside,

making us feeling bad.

Last night it was you,

keeping me warm and holding me tight.

I felt loved and secure –

With your arms around me for sure.

What a feeling in my own little world.

Until I woke up...

Back to reality, back to the cold.

7.02.2007 - Straße des Lebens

Ich laufe immer weiter die Straße meines Lebens.

Immer bist Du an meiner Seite gewesen,

noch nie so fern und doch so nah.

Deine Hände erbauten Brücken,

um mich voran zu bringen auf meinem Wege.

Nie stelltest Du ein Stoppschild auf

und mein Leben nahm seinen Lauf.

Durch Höhen und Tiefen lernte ich zu verstehen,

dass ich Dich weiterhin brauche,

um zu gehen.

Nicht zum Händchenhalten und beschützen,

nur ab und an zum Unterstützen.

Ich komme klar in dieser Welt,

auch wenn sie mich auf harte Proben stellt.

Es ist leichter zu ertragen,

wenn man weiß,

dass es jemanden wie Dich gibt,

der mit mir reist

- auf der Straße meines Lebens -.

7.02.2007 - 11/2003 Mein Leben

Mein Leben

Einsam,

nicht mehr so ganz und doch zu sehr.

Verloren,

aber auf dem Weg, jedoch noch nicht am Ziel.

Wunden,

längst verheilt, doch die Narben immer noch sichtbar und gefühlt.

Verängstigt,

nicht mehr so sehr, aber immer noch zu oft.

Hoffnung,

so oft verloren, aber immer noch präsent.

Liebe,

verletzt, belogen, betrogen und doch auf der Suche.

Glauben,

                                         verloren, aber wiedergefunden.

7.02.2007 - Life is worth it

I look down the cliffs and feel the desire to jump

Let´s quit it and visit the other world

Without injustice, pain and strain

Let´s fly to heaven

Suddenly I hear a voice

It´s advising me to appreciate life

With all ups and downs

`Cause it´s worth it...

I feel a warm breath on my shoulder

Lost energy comes back to me

My worries are not gone but they seem smaller

I feel stronger and I know I am able to fight for my life

`Cause it´s worth it...